Hey friends!Here to tell you about, 'luv_is_beauty,' a new support community for those with/who have recovered from eating disorders/eating issues! The more friends and support the better, right?! Since luv_is_beauty is so brand spankin' new, its focus is extremely flexible and open to input! Help shape a new support community!! Come, check out luv_is_beauty's profile and journal and connect with more people who understand you!:)Hope to see you there!PS. I have nothing but respect for ed_philosophy and do not discriminate against anyone's opinions on eating or weight-loss. If you read luv_is_beauty's profile and find that it is not for you, I completely understand. I am not here to offend, or push ideas on anyone; I am simply suggesting you check out a new community to add to your supports on lj! Hope to see you there!Xoxoxo
I’m working on a paper about grief and eating disorders for a graduate-level social work class. If you have a few minutes, would you mind answering a few questions for me? Any information included in the paper will be anonymous. In your answers, please keep in mind the guidelines of the community, and refrain from including details and numbers that might be triggering, such as weights, calories, and other numbers. If you would like to keep your answers private from the community, or if you want to include more details but are worried about triggering people, feel free to send me your answers in a private message.
Thanks so much!
1) Briefly describe your eating disorder history:
2) Where are you currently in terms of the eating disorder, recovery, etc?
3) How do you define recovery, remission, (or however you define or describe it)?
4) Do you think of eating disorders as a chronic illness or do you think of yourself as someone living with a chronic illness? Why or why not?
5) How do feelings of loss and grief play into your e.d. experience? (e.g. Have you felt the need to grief the eating disorder in recovery? Have you had to grieve things that you lost to the e.d? Any other ways that grief has been part of your experience?)
Various branches of psychologists and sociologists have made the association between eating disorders and the external environment. They are seen by some as a cultural phenomenon, a reaction to family dynamics, a way of interfacing with a world too complex and overwhelming for us. A way of maintaining our boundaries.So, where do you think your ED exists? Is it something very subjective and internal? Or is on a continuum between yourself and the outside world? (I'm aware I might not be posing this question very clearly - sorry).Personally, I feel my anorexia lives mostly inside me. For all the visual symptoms: weight loss and peculiar behaviour other people just see the tip of the iceberg. Those symptoms are secondary to the main part of anorexia - the part I experience in my head. On the one hand I am often unsure if the anorexic thoughts are my own or are planted there by the diease - it could be something external to me but to be honest I've internalised it for so long it feels like part of me. It's for me, not a show for anyone else. The ED isn't serving a purpose as my facade I show to the world.The weight loss was never a conscious sign I came up with to communicate my distress. To be honest, the more anorexic I am, the less I have any inclination or indeed information to communicate with other people. I did not become anorexic to justify getting help, I never became anroexic by any conscious process and I dont think that even unconsciously I was projecting any image to others. Yes, I have a need to flee and a need to uphold my boundaries and in this sense, my ED helps me interface with the real world. By limiting my intake bodilly I strongly suspect I'm subconsciously limiting my psychic intake, too. Sorry for spamming this comm. I'm hoping it will come back to life ^^
I was recently introduced to a new concept: Finding meaning in the experience of an eating disorder. It would never have occured to me that there might be something spiritual or useful beyond the self-knowledge that comes from any trying experience, to me an ED has always been just a disease. What possible meaning could there be? I can understand finding meaning in life outside an ED while in recovery but I'm confused about this business of finding menaing in the illness itself.Just wondering what you guys think about this.(x-posted, so apologies if you've already seen this!)
"This theoretical point of view is in line with recent empirical findings. Bachar and colleagues used the differentiation between the attraction to and repulsion by life and the attraction to and repulsion by death as independent factors in order to clarify the perceptions of life and death among ED patients.14 They found that AN patients are characterized by a rejection of life rather than a contemplation of death or an attraction to it."From this article: http://www.eatingdisordersreview.com/nl/nl_edr_16_4_1.htmlI'm just wondering what others make of the idea that AN is more a rejection of life than a urge for death.
In case you haven't heard, the whole healthcare "overhaul" that's going on is mandating that chain restaurants start putting calorie counts on their menus. Personally, this makes me want to cry and gouge my eyes out for a number of reasons. And I think that the needs/concerns of the eating disordered community (10 fucking million people) were totally disregarded - or probably never even considered - in making this ruling.What do you all think?
Hi. I know I'm supposed to write a short paragraph about me. So, I'll try to do so. I've been active with an eating disorder since I was 15 (I am now 27), but I can remember disordered thoughts all the way to age six. I've been in "remission" or "recovery" for about two or three years. Although, I struggle regularly. I have recently been fighting a relapse. Over the past two or three years of "remission" I have found myself. I have found my hobbies and my talents and my beliefs. While it feels so good to have myself back, I still struggle with letting this disorder go. I don't want to give up my "new" life, but it is so hard to let the disorder go. I am here because I feel that I really have little support in my life as far as eating disorders go. I find it difficult if not impossible to talk to anyone I am really close to about it for fear they will take this away from me. And while I want to recover, it scares me to do so completely. And I'm not sure one can ever really do it completely. I also find it hard to talk to those I am close to because they don't really understand and they don't really see me as having a problem because I look completely "normal." And it seems rather impossible to ask for support when in their eyes, nothing is really wrong. So, here I am. I'm hoping that journaling and seeking out support from people who do understand this disease and those who struggle the same issues will help me in my own struggle to maintain a self, life, health, and sanity.
That is a question I always secretly want to answer.So, ( my answer-Pt. I:Collapse )( Pt. IICollapse )I'm kinda hesitant to post this because it doesn't feel as meaningful or maybe insightful as I'd hoped. But then, maybe there's just a limit to the insight I can have and still keep myself sick.